Well, I’ve been going through a lot of pain. For a week or so after surgery I felt great. I woke up one morning and the pain in my chest was like a train trying to drive straight thru it. I ended up in KU for an additional three days was diagnosed with Pericarditis, fluid and inflammation around the sac surrounding my heart. I was put on some medication, specifically Prednisone (steriods). I can’t help but tell you that depression sets in fairly fast after you pin all of your hopes that this open heart surgery will do the trick. I do have a lot going for me though. I have accountability to a lot of people who keep me on my toes. My husband knows all my signs and he watches close. My dad and I talk every single morning, sometimes it’s no more than 5 minutes and ‘how’s the weather?” but I know its really him letting me know…’look here little girl, i’m watching’.
A few years ago I would have been so pissed and wanted to be left alone, now I look forward to it. My mom can sense it if I’m jacking up from 45 minutes away where she lives in the city. I don’t know how she does it, but she knows. I am going thru some legal crap that stems from my first felony case back in 2011. Maybe I mentioned this before but I have to register as a drug offender every 3 mos (for 15 years). Well when I was in the coma, obviously I couldn’t register and my family was a bit busy and so they issued a warrant for me. After I got recovering from the coma and the learning to walk again, i turned myself in and went to jail, eventually got bonded out and I have to pee each week to make sure I’m drug free (I’ve done this for 7 1/2 months and have something like 30 clean u.a.’s) Still, I could go to prison for 4 years or so. My sentencing is next week…we will see what happens. I tell you I can walk the line better than Johhny Cash.
So, I have an echo coming up to check the fluid around my heart and hopefully the meds have made it go away by then. I don’t want another invasive procedure. Oddly enough, my dad has pericarditis and congestive heart failure (it hit him the same year mine did and a few mos apart) Except I had endocarditis also. Theres several hereditary things my team is looking in to and his drs are going to get with my team and see what the possibilities are.
So, my blog is about my heart stuff and my love for creating art. Of course, the medical bills…don’t get me started. Anyway, I discovered that PayPal has a fund raising service that is called money pool There are classes I want to take from Jane Davenport, I need supplies to do the classes and I guess they aren’t too expensive for what you get out of them but I can’t afford them. So, I’m swallowing my pride and I started a money pool. I would like to have quality art pieces (not just painting and such but I want to have my own home made journals, etc.) My goal is to open an ETSY shop and see where it takes me. Any amount at all would help and if you can’t help cash wise ( understand that) then please forward my story and link to everyone and maybe they will be able to help. Even good quality art supplies that someone isn’t using…i’ll take them!
Here is the link to my PayPal Money Pool:
https://www.paypal.com/pools/c/8gElFlAQ5s