forgiving – Such A Random Life

Daddy and I on road trip to his house in White City
My Buddy Piper, Dad and Karen’s dog
The crazy chickens I fed every morning
Belt Buckle from my step ma, Karen. It was her brothers so it means a lot to me that she trusts me with it. I love it- I read and watch all things Vietnam so this was a great thing to give me.

mom and lil sis casey
casey and missy
hot tubbin…kinda
casey and my niece steff
me and my oldest son, who will not smile for pics
me and my nice open heart surgery scar…kinda great now
the devil inside
devilish missy

Over the past two weeks I got to visit my dad and step ma, Karen who live about 2 1/2 hrs away. It was very cool to take a road trip like we used to when I was a teenager. We talked the whole time and got to know each other again. Karen and I had met when I was a moron of a teenager, maybe 12…and I was an old twelve so I was a pain in the ass. She tried and I just was horrible as could be. Pride is something I cannot swallow….it goes down hard and I stopped trying because it came off as fake. I will say this time I enjoyed visiting with Karen and I found things out about her that I’d never taken the time to even ask. One thing I have never told her but I always respected her for was the way she loves my dad. And, like me…he was no picnic. But she hung in there and I’m glad she did.

Dad was very, horribly disappointed in me for becoming a drug addict so I avoided him like the plague. Just looking at him and he’d have known, so I stayed away. Now we have this honesty policy going and it’s very freeing. He stayed 2 extra days with me (he wanted to go home so bad he’d been in town a week already) but he went to court with me…on a day I could have been taken in custody. That was a big deal to me. I will tell you, if you are estranged from a parent or parents – let it go. Say you’re sorry, forgive. Life is so much better on this side of it.

I stayed a few days and nights at Dad’s then I came home to Leavenworth and went straight to KCK to spend time with mom. Gram June has been in an assisted living facility a couple weeks, it was weird her not being there but mom and I had a fun time. The coma, antibiotics and all had really destroyed my hair so mom did a highlighting on it and I made an appointment to get it cut (today). The angel that cut my hair totally said ‘hold on you don’t have to cut it ALL off and start over!’ I really thought I did. Go see this woman, she is fantabulous!